from the void.

resentment: to feel again.

i closed my eyes as darkness tore through me.

every fiber of my being ripped apart in a single breath.

as the howling screams traced their way through my mind i collapsed into the

lucid stillness of the present moment.

i must not fall prey to the voice screaming in my ear.

too late.

i've fallen into the void.

a blanket of pure blackness caresses my flesh.

within this space i am pulled from my very body.

no longer in control.

the voice tells me what i am and i listen to it with no question.

following it with my head down like a puppet being dragged across the floor.

i must not question anything for then i will see the light.

i must not question.

i must listen.

obey.

my curiosity gets the best of me.

i lift my head.

shapes of black and grey are wrestling off in the distance.

a sanctuary of fluidity emerges before me.

in a single blow i let the walls i had worked so hard to build crumble before me.

in a single exhale the antidote escapes my breath.

love..

the cure to the nightmare unfolding before me.

i can no longer be a slave to the past.

i must free myself from domestication and attachments,

detach. release. surrender.

unconditional love and forgiveness will be the catalyst to freedom within.

slowly i am beginning to see myself for the first time.

i am shedding my old skin as dusk makes way for dawn.

i am seeing myself not for who this world wants me to be but rather through the eyes of

unconditional love.

i am glimpsing the truth in all things.

this is my refuge.

this is my medicine,

i am ready to heal.

dear past, present & future s3lf:

i am.

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